Now i have a purpose, now I have a destiny, you made me for your glory!
Woke up to this phrase playing over and over in my head, the first week I came home. It always brings me back to DTS, when one morning during class, our school leader Amy, said let't wait on the Lord for a minute. So we did, and she began to sing a beautiful song over us. I remember singing along the lines of: He is never going to leave you, you don't have to be afraid anymore... and in that moment in class I remember, my mind shot ahead to me going home after DTS.
And this song brought so much comfort to my heart about not knowing about my next step after DTS - at this point I had no ideas of what was next, I didn't even know there was a second phase.
I didn't have a fear of being at home, but not knowing what I was going to do when I was there. God had already shifted so many foundations and false ways way of looking at him it was as if i was starting new, and to go back home and undo everything he did there, left me not feeling too excited!
After Amy sung this song over us, tears streamed down my face for hours....
The Lord began to sweetly speak and say Lauren, you were created for my presence, that is where you belong, and I will never leave you!
Prior, to DTs I remember thinking that I was going to finally find out what country I was called to. i had never felt called anywhere before, so I thought that during my DTS I would find my key to lead me!
I was wrong. lol
So here I am at home, and the first week of being here this phrase to an amazing song popped into my head.
Ahhh! Then during phase two I was reading Leonard Ravenhill's "Why Revival Tarry's" and the Lord gave me revelation. How we were created for him to dwell inside of us. We were created for that very purpose, that the creator of the universe, almighty God, would delight in dwelling inside of our hearts! To be with us! He just wants to simply be with us! That wrecks me, so deeply!
