
He is jealous for me....
We all know the relentless pursuit God has after the fullness of each and everyone of our hearts. While being away here in YWAM Kona Hawaii for 9 months now, God has convinced me of this relentless pursuit he has after ALL of me. I have learned on a new level the revelation of God being my father, who takes care of me simply because he loves me and the truth that I am his daughter, forever and always.
The depth of our God is a deep well that never runs dry and I am after as deep as I can go with him. It has been quite a journey with lots of tears and challenges of my heart, along with so many breakthroughs and soaring to new heights with God, after all this is the journey we are all on. I believe that we are all on this journey together as believers in Christ and his children simply after their father. I can not tell you how much it has meant to me the support you have given as well as all of your prayers that have poured into my life. Your prayers ARE working!!!
I sit here and remember the journey of coming out here in January, walking through the North Carolina airport listening to a Misty Edwards song, called Arm Wide Open- her confessing to God, she doesn't truly know how to love and what it is to love to the core. I remember thinking this is me, I don't know how to love even... what it is, but I was determined to find out! And I sure am finding out what love looks like! How to receive God's love for myself has been a process of him peeling back layers like an onion on my heart! Loving others, is something I still am growing in, I want to love others as Christ loves them, and he has been pouring out grace and strength for me to do so. It has been so wonderful learning how to love others how God does. It is so fun to me, to sit and people watch and ask God, where do you see that person going in 5 years, what do you think about them?
Thank you, so much for making all of this possible for me to be able to out here in Kona. I think back to 9 months ago and I wonder what happened to me, where did the transformation take place? And I can not even put my finger on it, it wasn't a crazy encounter then I was changed, but I strongly have been seeing the major benefits of community living. Living with others, and being challenged personally has produced lots of growth. But the most of it I believe is deep inside my heart, God going deep and awakening who I was truly created to be, loved by God his daughter, and him wiping away lies I have believed about myself and filling me with his word- verses like psalm 139 and 2Timothy have marked me in such a deep way this season, I will go to outreach a confident woman in Christ
Here is a little poem I wrote- poetry is something I have always loved, and also one thing God has awakened my heart to doing more of! Here is a taste:
To take on a Martha heart
and sit at the feet of Jesus
pouring all of my worship out on him
is all I desire.
One thing that I seek, is to dwell
in the shelter of the almighty
and to live in the house
of the Lord all the days of my life..
to know him.
Thank you again!
~Lauren Triola